Sunday 15 February 2009

Valentines, schmalentines

Valentine's Day or Saint Valentine's Day is a holiday celebrated on February 14 by many people throughout the world. In the West, it is the traditional day on which lovers express their love for each other by sending Valentine's cards, presenting flowers, or offering confectionery

Eek. Why do we need this day to express our love? Do on the other 364 days involve us just liking wach other? Does Feb 14th really make us fall head over heels in love with our other half then when the clock strikes 12am BOOM the love has gone. Bollocks.

Numerous early Christian martyrs were named Valentine. Yeah, so now apparently love is associated with martyrdom. St Valentine was actually a martyr from ancient Rome. How romantic.

As you have probably realised- i hate Valentine's Day. I think its a complete waste of time and coporate hallmark crap. I don't need a card and presents to be shown im loved. The day makes single people feel lonely and the people in relationships under pressure to show what a wonderful couple they are. People get competetive with their relationship and i think it is silly.

Don't get me wrong, me and Andi have had two wonderful Valentine's days together- by ourselves.

I don't like going out for the simple reason you are being scrutinised by everyone: "ooh look at them wonder how long they will last. wonder if he got her flowers" blah.

Andi buys me things i and i buy him things all the time. We have a wonderful solid relationship that i don't need confirmed with a flimsy card and some wilting flowers.

So my advice is to ignore this stupid day- it's not even a proper holiday it's made up- and show your partner you love them everyday. Because love is forever, not just for Valentines day!

Personally, i blame Geoffrey Chaucer. The bugger.

lots of love, everyday!

xxxxxx

Monday 9 February 2009

My new love

I have to confess. I have fallen in love. With a woman named Stephanie Calman. I really think it was the best interview i have ever done. She is the nicest person and is so down to earth even if she has had a huge success with her writing.

So at the beginning of last week i was feeling very low about my journalism. I just can't seem to get it right at the moment. I had no passion for it anymore. And now i have met this lovely woman who admits she was also bottom in english and had notalent for creative writing at all. She was just persistent. She has taught me the most out of everyone in my education so far, and i love her for it.

I realise now that i can get there. I love writing in my own style. Stuff the boring yarn that newspapers have you write. My family life is exciting to all of my friends so why can it not be exciting to the rest of the country. I am feeling really ambitious now. This article has shown me that if i am passionate about what i am writing about the words just flow, much the same as this blog.

I am a wierd person and now i can put this to good use. I'm off to amazon to look for James Thurber and SJ Perelman books. Non-fiction is now my way forward. Or if all else fails i have found the magazine i can write for: Front. If you don't know what that is, look it up. If you do, you know i would be like a duck to water in that magazine.

Oh, and look up Stephanie Calman. She is a great person.

Ciao for now!

xxx

Thursday 5 February 2009

Stuck in a rut or should that be runt? ho ho

I just read Adams Blog and it got me to thinking about my attitude to Uni.

I really don't know what to do with myself at the minute. It's great having Andi back, don't get me wrong but the last few weeks have been seriously stressing me out.

It's like i have lost all interest in uni. Part of me wishes that i had just got a full time job and worked up that ladder instead of running up this massive debt. It all started when Terry gave me feed back on my portfolio and general print 1 work. Afterwards i just wanted to shoot myself in the head. The confidence i was gaining was shattered right there in that 5 minute conversation. Yes, i know Terry didn't mean it to do that, but it did.

My grammar's shit. my articles are shit. my interviews are shit. I'm just generally shit. Cheers TK, im leaving your appreciation society on Facebook.

I can take critisism no bother. But this was like a kick in the face. Then he asked me if i was at all bothered about this degree as it seems to him that it's only a small part of my life. Well no Terry, paying £3.500 a year for this conversation i can't say it is only that.

I just feel really dumb and can't really talk about it to anyone. I blurted it out in Costas the other day and Dan gave me some advice. Still i don't think journalism is for me, maybe some part of it, i haven't decided.

My passion for this course has gone. Maybe i should just get pregnant now and live off benefits. That's a joke. Obviously.

I've realised this blog sounds depressing. I guess i am at the moment, but i'll survive. I'll pass get my degree and settle in some mediocre job somewhere. It'll be great.